Trust and honesty

About a 100 days ago, I kinda planted a seed. A seed that I didn't know what it will grow into. It might be a good plant or it might not. Because the condition was right to do so, I have decided to give it a shot.

From a tiny bud

Having to kill a few  before this, I was extremely careful this time. I didnt want another to leave me, at least not as soon as the ones before this.

it keeps growing

I was trying not to give it so much attention assuming that the less attention the less attachment. Unfortunately, the damage was done.

In the process of blooming

The attention was there. I really wanted it to grow into something beautiful which it did. There was a lot of fun having to be in the process of watching the plant grow.

'when it was at its peak'

Knowing of the attachment that I have towards it, I tried of letting it go. Again and again and again. But it never happen. It was just too beautiful to let it go. Everytime when it almost die, I gather all my courage to save it back. Put more water, give it more sunlight, give more care to it.

Almost dying

It is both mentally and physically tiring in trying to save it especially when you have to keep putting faith in the plant. Somehow, you will have doubts in the plant and the trust towards it will start to fade away.

Petals start to fall one after another

It is until a stage where you just want to leave it that way,  let it be, let the final petal fall by itself. No watering, no nurturing. You just want to end it. No more planting. That is it.

However, the question is, will it be better if the plant is not around? Or will you regret one day for killing it? Is it worth to let it die in the first place? It is something like I have always tell others, short term pain is better than a long one. So short or long?

8 more days

till I get to see those familiar faces again. Woohoo...really cant wait..Been away too long from them and I think this is the first time that it ever happens. Havent been seeing Mr Teoh and the other 2 Ms Teoh for 1.5 years and Mrs Teoh for a year. I miss the hugs, the laughters and the time we spent together.

Almost done with my shopping already. Maybe need to add a few more things to the list. Then it is all done and what is left is just the packing.

Besides packing my luggage I still need to clean up my room. It is already in a mess before I start packing, imagine when I start to pack, things will be all over the room!!

2 months of holidays seem to be too short. I dont think I have enough time to spend with my family and also some friends. Start to feel guilty already. Especially towards Mr, Mrs and the 2 Ms Teoh.

My holiday calendar;
30/12 - 3/1 : Singapore
4/1 - 6/1: Skudai
7/1-10/1: Ipoh
11/1 - 12/2: KL (maybe in Ipoh during the weekend)
13/2 - 16/2: Bali
17/2 - 19/2: Muar (not sure yet for how many days)
20/2 - 25/2 : no plans yet..hopefully in Ipoh, enjoying Astro before flying back to Sydney or in Singapore with my 2 princesses. (shit 5 days left to really enjoy myself!!!!!)
26/2 : Sydney..:(

See, pack right? I somehow wished that I need not to be in KL for one whole month. Then, I can travel between Ipoh and Singapore more. Sigh. It is just too late.

Besides those holiday plans I still have my thesis and my internship report to write up. Gosh...Holiday is like no holiday. Wwwaaahhhhh...I wanna cry d!!!

Despite those things that I dont enjoy doing waiting for me, I really cant wait to get back. First thing when I reach Ipoh, I am going to Onn Kee for the Nga Choi Kai and the next morning, Foh San dim sum and tau foo fah at Funny Mountain!! Woot woot...

The Perfect Sunday

Despite waking up early this morning due to the noises Mr Always Right (AR) created, I had a good Sunday. A perfect Sunday morning I would say.

Usually, when he wakes me up early in the morning with the banging of doors and cupboards and the sound of teaspoon knocking on glass mug (him stirring his drink, you know the 'ting ting ting' sound), I will be screaming at him.

But today, instead of screaming at him, I asked him where is he going early in the morning, and has he forgotten about the breakfast I promised to make him. His answer, bush walking. Should have guessed it as he just got his macro lens the day before.

Instead of going back to bed, I surprised myself by following him to bush walk since he said it is only going to be a short 1 hour walk. Should have also known that his 1 hour will never be 1 hour.

Mr AR in action

My failed attempt.:(. I am sure his lens can do better than mine.

Some pretty rock formation

A hole in the rock!!!

If only I could do this every day

Me

The last picture is taken with timer. Haha. Seldom do this kind of silly stuff. But I was just too bored waiting for Mr AR to finish taking his pictures.

Got home and prepared breakfast. Havent been doing this for quite a while. The last time I prepared a proper American breakfast was in Ipoh I think. I prepared it for my parents for some special occasion if I am not mistaken.

Eating this with a glass of juice = total awesomeness..

If only I could go to my aunt's(Mrs Teoh's cousin) place again like last weekend, my Sunday is absolutely the perfect Sunday.

Swimming in the pool!!

However, I am contented with what I've done today. Happy happy Sunday. :). One thing I realised about this weekend, there was no mood swing. Heheheh....

MPPW

I remember meeting you the first time at Quadrangle, outside the Arc stall.

My first impression of you, one word, mature. I don't know what we talked about to kill time but I can remember clearly that you offered me green tea to keep myself warm as it was winter and we were like siaw cha bo standing in the cold.

Somehow after that, we didnt talk much. And I dont know since when that we start talking too much.

As I have always said, I think friendship is kind of fated. Of all people why must I meet you?

Meeting and having you around is one of the best thing that ever happened to me. My life here in Sydney is going to be so different without you. You have brought joy and laughters to me. :).

You asked me just a few days ago, are you a good friend to me (something like that, I think)? To me, you always are. You are the one that I will call everytime I am in trouble and talking to you always makes me feel much better. Thank you for being such a great listener. If you werent so important to me, I wouldnt have try my best to protect you in every way. For me you are such a great friend that I think you dont deserve to be hurt by other people.

I am going to miss you dearly. Life here is going to be so different without you. I know that we will definitely meet again but somehow I felt pretty insecure without having you around. I guess I will just have to get used to it. Attachment!! No!!!!hahahaha...

I know that I havent been there for you much. Sorry for that. It was always you that been giving and me been receiving. Really, thanks a lot for everything.

I will try to meet up with you everytime I go Singapore. Take good care of yourself and all the best in Singapore... Gosh, I am missing you already. Sobs...

From the bottom of my heart (imagine me having my right hand on my chest saying this), thank you so much! Love you!

Me and you..:)..

Best of friends

Happen to watch Land Before Time during the weekend. Like this song very much. :). Hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do...

The future accountant

Was talking to Ms Teoh Jr and she was telling me about getting a new phone..

Ka Yee says (6:24 PM):
 dunno
 not enough ask dad la 
 he coming end of the month wert
 cz i really need one
 my current one cannot hear properly
 must har har har
 damn it
 EH
 u still owe me 500 bucks
 rmb hor
 hehehe i got so much assets
lin9: 18 says (6:25 PM):
 zzzzzzzzzzzz
 i thought u might forget...
 hahahahah
 500 rm right?
lin9: 18 says (6:26 PM):
 i give u 200 sg ok?
Ka Yee says (6:26 PM):
 HAHAHAHHAHAH
 forget
 please hor
 u sister what course?!
 hmm
lin9: 18 says (6:27 PM):
 hana hana
 so 200 sg enough??
Ka Yee says (6:27 PM):
 wait let me count
lin9: 18 says (6:27 PM):
 wah still want to convert meh
 wah
Ka Yee says (6:27 PM):
 hahahahahhaha
lin9: 18 says (6:27 PM):
 discount a bit la...
Ka Yee says (6:27 PM):
 no la
 jz kidding


Havent graduate also start being so calculative already. I wonder what it is going to be like when she becomes a real accountant. I can faint!

Happy 27th Anniversary!!

My memory is getting poorer and poorer as I grew older. I can't remember things as I used too. During my younger days, I could remember almost everything that I heard. I could remember facts and numbers easily. Now, I dont even remember the things I tell people and also what others tell me. :S.

I was talking to Mrs Teoh earlier today. Before this conversation, we were talking about something else that I cant even remember now;

Mrs Teoh: Do you know what day is today?

Me: *look at the date on my watch*..Opps, happy anniversary!!

Mrs Teoh: Useless one you. Even your elder sis called/sms me (I have forgotten which one).

Me: *deep in my heart cursing Ms Teoh Sr for not reminding me* Heheheh..Sorry, lately lost track of date..So is this your 26th year?

Mrs Teoh: 27th. You think your mum still young?

Me: You are 52 right?

Mrs Teoh: 51 la!

Conversation continued with some other stuff...

Can faint right? Hahha. So pai seh. Got my facts all wrong. zzzzz. It was unintentional!

I have lost count how many times have I forgotten about this day. Sometimes I wonder, is their anniversary only, not birthday. I mean anniversary is something you share between 2 individuals as it mark something between them and not others. But for birthday is different, something that you wouldnt want to celebrate alone. Hmmm, maybe that is why this date seems meaningless to me.

But after giving some thought about it, I cant say that this day is meaningless to me. Without this day, there will be no me, no Ms Teoh Sr and Ms Teoh Jr, right? Therefore, I shalll try to remember this important day for the following year. Heheh...

Anyway, happy anniversary mum and dad!! Love you guys always!!

Taken from Mrs Teoh's facebook